I don’t know about you, but I’ve found this year (2017) to be one of the most challenging I’ve ever encountered.
It started last year when I returned back to the UK from a trip abroad, a trip that I hoped would be a dream come true. Things never turn out like we expect though, do they? It was a dream come true, at least for a little while, but it was the return home that tripped me up.
Things never turn out like we expect, do they?
Anyway, after a challenging few months back in the UK, where I had to come to terms with the loss of my dream, and accept what life had thrown my way, I made a decision at the end of 2017 that would change everything.
I decided to break free from a destructive life-long relationship. This relationship was with a family member. I believed the move abroad would set me free from that relationship, but life had other plans.
Whilst abroad, my Spirit Guides told me repeatedly that I had to return to the UK to finish the Karma between myself and this family member. It was time to cut the ties. So, after much soul searching, I returned and cut the ties.
Once free, I fell into 2017 in a head-long tumble and bounced off my face, picked myself up, dusted myself down – not literally! – and set to recovering my identity.
Or rather, I let go of my identity to find a new one. One that was hidden underneath all the layers of issues caused by years of abuse, rejection, deceit and manipulation.
I follow Astrology and Numerology, and it was clear from these ancient esoteric sciences that 2017 was to be full of conflict and opposing influences. These were: follow my heart and put to good use the abundance of new energy that flowed through me, and launch a new career path, OR, allow myself the time to rest, recover and come to terms with all the significant change.
The sensible thing to do would have been to recover, but . . .
I chose to follow my career. The creative energy that filled my mind with new ideas was hard to ignore, and it gave me fidgety feet. I couldn’t sit still. I had to do, do, do, and go create!
After ignoring most of the signs that told me to slow down and rest, I continued to seek out new ways to earn an income. To no avail. I hit closed doors. One after another.
After a few months, I burnt out and suffered from a series of health problems and had no choice but to abandon my new quest, and rest.
“Where is the money going to come from?” I shouted at Spirit, repeatedly, while I paced around in a state of anxiety and fear.
I knew deep down that money never comes when, how or from where we think it will, but I wanted things MY WAY.
It wasn’t to be MY WAY. And life showed me, yet again, that our needs will always be met if we let go of the ‘how’ or ‘when’ or ‘what’.
It took until November (which for me was a 9 month, signalling endings and wisdom gained) to fully accept that my health and well-being would have suffered less if I had gone with the flow, trusted the signs AND trusted Spirit. And slowed down.
I could have still pursued my new career goal, but at a more leisurely pace. But if I had, I wouldn’t have learnt all the REALLY IMPORTANT lessons I learned during 2017. Blah!
Our needs will always be met if we let go of the ‘how’ or ‘when’ or ‘what’
Truth is, I tried to distract myself from all the emotional fall-out that comes with ending a long term relationship. But since I decided to stand still, stop struggling, and face myself, my health began to improve, my mind began to clear and the anxiety and tears ebbed away.
I wouldn’t change how I dealt with 2017. I value everything I experienced and learnt from it, but I did stop flow with the natural cycles of life. And suffered for it.
Over the last few years, I have lived my life by following the wisdom of numbers. I have made decisions and taken action when it seemed appropriate, but in 2017 I stopped. I abandoned the advice of Number Principles and ended up struggling against the flow.
The good new is, I’m back in the flow. I let a lot of unhealthy beliefs leave my consciousness, gave my mind and body the rest it needed, and entered into a state of receiving instead of always giving.
Life can’t give us what we need if we refuse to accept its guidance.
Life can’t give us what we need if we refuse to accept its guidance, can it? I learnt that lesson repeatedly during 2016 and 2017. Let’s hope it has stuck! So, now I open my arms – and my ears – and wait to receive!
Love and peace